At times I know I don't have the ability to make choices quickly. One thing I hate about myself is taking decisions too long.It takes me a long time to make up my mind.On the contrary, being this way allows me to commit minor errors.I don't feel good while making this post. I just talked to my mom and we end up having separate thoughts.I don't want to upset her. I don't want her to dump my suggestions either. I'm certain we have a common goal- to give what's best for the family. However, I think about leaving it all to her so not to have arguments.I admit I felt bad during our discussion because I wanted her to think more.Rushing on things is such a bad idea for me! Why do things fast if we still have enough time?There are favorable and unfavorable factors with our own viewpoints. My mom and I are very opposite. She makes a decision right away. No not fast, but very fast. It's important to try to understand and respect what we disagreed with anyway.
There's one thing that I want to do now. That is to leave home,start on my own, learn by myself and grow in the process of searching myself without them. I'm not rejecting my family though. They're still part of who I am.My ohana will always be my family.
I've been planning to get a job outside Davao so I can start on my own. I need to get rid of some people in here to help me grow. My older sister has been telling me to get out of my comfort zone.I hope I can get the job I'm applying for as soon as possible.